Look at the stars, look how they shine for you..

And all the things you do
.... You know how I love you so.

Yellow - Coldplay

I try to hold on but it hurts too much, I try to forgive but it's not enough to make it all ok

So, hi people. How are you? Im not really asking btw :p
I've been so unproductive these days, all I do is just sitting in front of laptop and twitter-ing all day long. Yes yes, I bet y'all do the same thing like me. Oh wait, or is it just me? :O

Man, I miss writing!!!!! I miss blog-walkings, I miss blogging, I miss everything in this blog; the peoples, the memories, those ideas that popped in my head all of sudden when I'm writing, ....

Ah and yes, I do miss you too.

I feel so empty these days.. I usually call him at night (actually we still phone to each other sometimes). Tell him my problems, then he'll tell me it'll be ok. He made me laugh with those stupid jokes. And you made my day. As simple as that.

And you know, since everything's done... Something's missing in my head. My heart. My soul.

I've never been single this long-- don't get me wrong dear, it's not like 'I can't stand being single!' or 'uh I cant live without him' and another cheesy words, no no. But really, this boy drives me crazy. Eventhou' we've broken up for almost a year, I still can't face the truth that he's no longer... mine. And this is the reason why I stay single.

All I know that,

this is my fault.


Shall we move on? Yes yes.

Have I mentioned you? I got three days off! Yeah, 3 days. While another school got 7 days off from school. Oh oh, 78. I gotta take a bath and do those homeworks <--- oh yes such a diligent student, ain't I? :p

Adios people! :)

p.s.: I never cried since.. Idk when. But I cried while I was typing this. I miss you terribly :/

Moi Je Joue!

(listening to: Moi Je Joue - Brigitte Bardot)

Craving for this, Miss Dior by Christian Dior. Oh, and I just can't stop to click the 'play' button. Maryna Linchuk looks stunning! <33

3 DAYS TO GO TO GRADUATION DAY

It's 4.20 am already but I still awake. I slept for some hours but at 2 am I suddenly woke up. Twitter is currently down for maintenance, no one ask me on messenger and skype, so what should I do? I'm bored, pfff :/
yesterday I went to Rasta's house with elsya. just two of us. but suddenly yada and sara came. and everyone joined us! taking photos, delivery Mcd, laughing over some stupid things.. what else? I just love the moment I've spent with my friends.

well well, I can't stop laugh every single time I read this! LOL :)

DO-IT-YOURSELF

(Listening to : Hellthy Podcast - Bloc Party)

Good afternoon everyone! While waiting my oatmeal done, I'm thinking of what will I do this holiday... I want buy some cute stuffs and new outfits and go to thrifted shop, too bad no money -_- So I'm thinking of DIY project! Oh Doing DIY project would be fun in this super long long holiday, rite? There are lots of DIY project I wanna do:

1. Cute necklaces
2. Pinhole Camera
3. Make my own bokeh on my lens
4. Ripped-aced washed jeans
5. Photo shoot, of course! :)

So to all my friends, wanna join with me?

Another Birthday

Hope you had the best one, Osa!







Osa cried when we were singing along together while holding a birthday cake. She never thought we would come and gave her a surprise! had so much fun and laughing a lot at her house until 5 pm, a little breathtaking after everything finally has done, right?

.......................and

I'm in love with their expression! :p

I GOT IT YEAY!

SAY HELLO TO MY NEW BABYYYYYY!!!!!



just bought it yesterday! thank you momm *hugs*. oh but I don't really know how to use it, gotta call Enad tonight! hehehehehe.

rekomen: dateng ke acara Klastic Toycam yang di Barito ya! :D

Lately I've been busy losing sleep because of you

I'm not such a person who needs sleep at all. But this time, I really need sleep. Really.

Oh, the tittle has the answer.

WE CALLED THIS 'JIMBO'

Today was very hottt!!!! But it didn't decrease my desire to go to this place called 'Jimbo'. Actually Jimbo is only a usual rooftop, but when me, Nia, and Reza found this place we were soooo excited! no matter how hot and the sun shines brightly or how dangerous it is, we love this place though! Fortunately I brought my camera so the results were sooo lovely

Tatu teached me something, "scream out loud! then your heart will calm down." Oh my, thanks Tatu.

I-CAN-DO-IT!

Currently reading a lot of manga and spending my time to watch DVDs. My blog seems monotone since I always talk about UN.

Tsubasa Chronicle is one of my favorite, the anime is still going on animax, but I prefer the manga!

This sunday I'm going to have test at Labschool, but I even haven't done the task yet. There will be try out on Saturday and Sunday and 2 weeks later is final test. I seem so tired rite? But I have my magic words: I-can-do-it! I try to do math everyday even I don't. I study science everynight even it's hard. Cool rite? Since my teacher said like this "Do the things you don't like everyday", It has changed my study schedule. thanks sir!

p.s.: I miss Thirtieth squad so bad, and oh, I'm no longer an osis organisation now. good luck for osis 31 anyway :D

Dear Maretta..

Maretta, one of my best bud at my class has just turned 14. me and my classmate planned to made surprised birthday party for her. aaaaaaand finally, it turned out amazing!! oh, sorry for made you annoyed at the firs time Maretta, it was just a trick for make you cry hihihi. here are the photos ;)

oh god, why time flies so fast? I can't imagine how to say goodbye with them... :(

OFTER for osis 31

One of my english teacher at school is going to USA this month, she has to continue her study cause she's got accepted in university already. Good luck Ms.Irna!
I might be moving in UK soon. perhaps 3 years later. not sure yet, but I have to.

OFTER (orientation for the next osis leader) in my school has finished. I remember that day when I was standing in the middle of school yard and the whole school watched me. I was one of the candidate for osis leader last year, the jury asked me questions in english -which I didn't really understand cause my english was so sucks! aaah I get ashame every single time I remember that. but now.. I have to consent my job as a secretary for the next osis member.

a half of my heart says "I don't want leave osis now, you have to wait until I graduate!" but the other side says "I gotta kick out from osis now!!!! don't you remember that national examination is coming up?"

it probably hurts we have to separate each other..we've been together for many months friends. you know that reunion won't be as absorbed as now. but life must goes on, it's nearly the time for us-- I mean for 9th grader to concentrate for national examination. and the 8th grader have to work harder for the next term!

well, this is only my thoughts. sorry for too long post~ have a good sunday everyone! :D

La Bamba

Hello people! it's been a long time since the last time we talked, rite? aah you don't know how much I miss writing *wink wink* Actually I don't know what I'm goin' to write but I'm in the mood to write something hehee. So how's my days? getting better, I guess :D I got good score almost in every subject, yeay!!!! And.... the election for the next osis leader will be start tomorrow. ah, I can't wait to see who's the next leader!

Oh, I've been playing and taking photos with cameroid. wo-hooo it's soooo fun fun fun!

I just realized that I don't have any good self-portraits sighh, I'm goin' to make photo session with my sisters this weekend. I'll post the photos later. ciao!

Valentine's

How's your valentine day everyone? I spent valentine's day with my friends at pim yesterday. we were watching cinema, laughing over some stupid thingy, taking photos, eating ice cream, and watching Soulvibe. even I didn't celebrate with boyfriend, it was fun though :p oh, and I met Bena there.






ah, sorry for the blur pictures. I was so excited so I lost the focus haha. what more I can say? I was so happyyyyy :D :D oh, and I would like to know where did you spend your valentine's day? tell me, tell me!

Home

I cut school today, errr i don't really like this. No friends, no giggles, no gossips and the worst thing is: I can only eat porridge. Porridge. yucks. porridge with chickens, carrot soup, and any kind of tasteless food. can you imagine that?! someone please take me to coffee bean or oh la la please.



while i was boring and avoid myself from tempting food, I decided to watched these movies (again). watch dvd is really kill time, in fact I basically hate waste time for only seat and watch dvd. haha no offense guys, it's only my opinion. who cares with my opinion anyway? I can't wait to go to school tomorrow. ciao friends!

Polly Scattergood

I'm totally in love with Polly Scattergood!!!!!!!! I just found her myspace, while I was boring and got nothing to do. Poem Song is one of my favorite song from her. I was perusing the lyric.. and oh well, it really fits for me right now. Her songs make me somewhat feel better after I've through this rough week. I mean, lots of exams and so many problems.

I try not to let my insecurities
Dictate who I am, and who I want to be
I gave you all my world, and my words, and my soul
So please be kinder, if you're in control
Because
Time takes, time takes, time takes, time takes many tears away

p.s.: Breaking Dawn has released in Indonesia,have you bought it? I haven't bought it yet. I envy you who've bought it earlier -__-

30th squad

tomorrow maybe is our last meeting. we've been together for so many months friends. aaaaah i can't type anything again. i love you so much 30th squad!!!!!!!!!!

time flies so fast, and i just realized it's nearly the time for us to separate :'(

24.01.09

Have you heard that Polaroid is back? Yes yes I'm soooo exciting!! I've been saving my money to buy Polaroid since last year, but I haven't found the place where I can buy the Polaroid yet. A friend of mine told me to buy Instax, but I know the result is not as good as Polaroid. While waiting the Polaroid and cheer me up, I used polaroid generator.

I don't know how to use it well, but I love this pict anyway :D

ciao!

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Am I annoy you guys?

I'm really sorry pal. But give me one more chance. I'll change my attitude and my mind. even they don't tell me what's my fault, even they're still treat me nice, I think I've got a big problem :|

argh, sorry if i seem so rant.

Savior

listening to: other side of world - kt tunstall

The pictures above are from Lookbook. I love black and white indeed, they look so adorable! Actually I want buy BW roll film for my holga but it's so hard to find and once I found it, the price is very expensive. Maybe I should go to pasar baroe, my friends told me that there're a lot of camera stuffs there. Yes, but maybe next time. I almost don't have time to use or learn more about Holga. Besides that, I really really want to play piano again. It's been a long time since the last time I learned piano at purwacaraka. How I miss play my fingers on piano, oooohhhh.


actually the title got nothing to do with this post. bye then!